Starting Fresh

Hello ,
Change is hard but I'm leading to adjust. I'm going to look at a new barn to take lessons at for riding tomorrow. I'm quite nervous because the last time I did this it didn't turn out so great and I ended up taking like five lessons then leaving and not riding for a while. Another reason is because eye surgery makes your eyes look weird and I don't want to go out in public and be made fun of . I will have sun glasses on because my eyes are sensitive to light but still. I hope this barn is the right place for me and I can get over some of my fears. Another event that happened is that I found out the horse I used to ride before moving barns the first time (who followed me) is now in rolled as a lesson horse at the place I left. I was the only one who rode him for two years and I miss him . I had to tell myself "why look back, your not going that way". I am welcomed to come out during the summer and ride him for fun which is nice. I also miss my old trainer before the place I left who own the horse I'm talking about.  I'm ranting on, I will stop now. That is all for tonight .
-Abbey